If you’re anything like me, you can’t stick to anything. It’s not because I’m busy and have no time, and it’s not because I’m not interested in the goals I set myself. I just procrastinate and find excuses not to do the things I want to do. I find that to be quite odd. These are things that I want to do, yet I find excuses not to do them.
I recently told myself I’d make a list a week, of different things, such as ‘words that make me feel good’ or ‘reasons I’m a good person’. I stuck that out for one week, before I forgot about it (I have literally just remembered it).
I told myself I’d start doing squats daily, again. That only lasted 2 days. I ate two pub meals today (lunch @ Wetherspoons, dinner @ Southfield). The pub meals made me want to go for a run, but it’s midnight, and it’s cold outside.
It’s also cold in my house, which is one of my many excuses for not getting anything done. As a student, I live in a student house with 5 other students. We’re quite poor, being students and all. Our rent is a lot of money, and that doesn’t include bills. We can’t afford heating to be on for too long, so we have a timer for when the heating is on. 8am-9am, then off all day, and back on 6pm-8pm. We have a large house, so the heating barely heats it up. The cold is a reason I ‘don’t exericse’ (too cold to wear a vest and shorts), and is also a reason I don’t ‘write notes from books’. My hands are cold when out in the open, so reading books on poetry criticism and writing notes is not ideal.
About ten days ago, I told myself I’d learn a new word every day to widen my vocabulary. That lasted a few days. I gave up and forgot about that until now. There was no particular reason as to why I gave that one up, but I wish I didn’t. I’d know 10 new words by now.
I have goals I want to keep.
I always complain to my family and friends that I’m ‘bored’ and I ‘have nothing to do’, but that’s not entirely true. I could be doing things, and I will be.
I want to read a book a week. 52 books a year. Complete books. This could include a book of poetry, or a Shakespeare play (or other plays). This shouldn’t be too hard to stick to, as I’m an English student. But I’d like to read for pleasure again. It’s been a while.
I also want to stick with the squats and workouts.
I will stick with these.